I am have been sent out on an assignment by my Pastors and Spiritual Parents today, April 30th, 2016. I was more nervous than I was excited but I was still excited. I was humbled to tears the days to follow after the understanding of the weight of the assignment. That I would be the one chosen takes me completely out and brings me to tears if I think about it for more than 3 minutes! Literally, 3 minutes and I am a bucket full of tears.
The time of preparation for it left me feeling anxious. It’s that type of anxiousness that is beyond nervous but left me tired and drained. I knew this feeling was not of the Lord because it was contrary to the word of peace and grace. Last week, I wrote about what Due Season can feel like sometimes and this is one of the ways that I’ve perceived “due season”. Anxiousness.
I believe that we can get so caught up in training, preparing, applying, making sure you’re staying aware of your surroundings, keeping account of your team, etc. that when we “get on the mark” and we hear the gunshot to start the race we can simply freeze.
But what makes us freeze at that moment?
I did a brief word study on the word “anxious” and some definitions are:
characterized by extreme uneasiness of mind or brooding fear about some contingency.
Afraid or nervous especially about what may happen: feeling anxiety
Wanting or eager to do or have something very much especially because of fear or nervousness.
See there are some things we are anxious about because we are afraid or in fearabout something. Why? I believe it is just as one of the definitions states yet a little different: Wanting or eager to do or have something very much especially because of offear or nervousness.
Fear causes us to be grounded in our questions and doubts of “I don't know if what happens to everyone else will really happen to me.”Or “can I really do this?”But let's use some real examples that I have dealt with and heard from others about themselves: “I don't understand why my knight in shining armor hasn't come to me yet so I don't believe that love really works or exists!” And “I just want to get this season of my life over with because it's hard and I'm tired of dealing with this!” Okay, one more, “G-d I need you to hurry up and move like you said you would do in your word because I have plans and things to do.”
When we get anxious, fear, literally, causes us to get off track and focus on the lack that we have within ourselves instead of Jehovah Jireh, The Lord Our Provider. There is nothing too hard for the Lord and there is nothing that He created that is not fulfilled. Including his will, every promise and our heart's desires that are found in His word that line up according to His ordained path of life for each of us.
Another reason why we are anxious is that we have allowed our fears and doubts to keep us from praying. If we pray we place doubt and worry in front of our requests. Doing this turns our requests into bargains and requirement of proof that the Lord moves on our behalf not because he loves us but to prove to ourselves that we can push time in front of eternity’s schedule.
Philippians 4:6 says Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God.
The root of the word from the Latin word ‘anxius’ meaning "solicitous, uneasy, troubled in mind" (also "causing anxiety, troublesome"), from angere, anguere "choke, squeeze," figuratively "torment, cause distress" (see anger (v.)). The same image is in Serbo-Croatian’s - tjeskoba "anxiety," literally "tightness, narrowness."
We put ourselves in a narrow mindset that literally chokes and squeezes our faith and shrinks it to the smallest cell that becomes a negative catalyst of hopelessness, oppression, depression and even ANGER, JEALOUSY and ENVY.
In order to not be anxious, we must do what Philippians 4:6 says, “...but in EVERY situation, BY PRAYER AND PETITION WITH THANKSGIVING…”
From my own experience, I can tell you the following: Prayer changes things. Prayer is the ultimate stabilizer. Prayer brings a double-minded man into a decision. Prayer brings healing to a broken heart. Prayer helps you see another perspective of what you're anxious about and, most of all, Prayer is extremely confrontational with “fear”. It removes it and smears peace that surpasses our understanding all over it!
If we read Philippians 4:6 in context of this entry it would read, “Do not be afraid of anything, but in every situation, by communication and trust with the Lord, present your request to God.”
After we have engaged and had an encounter with Jehovah Jireh and Jehovah Shalom and we have taken our mark, and we hear that gunshot, we will do what we are called and assigned to do. Not only that, we will be successful and leave with a strong finish!!