Anesthesia Part 3 - Awakened After Surgery
In Part One of this series, we have found that we are the patients and not the surgeons. We cannot operate on ourselves when the point of anesthesia is to numb us and keep us from going into shock because of the level of pain that we really feel. InPart Two, we found out that the self-injected aesthetics - in the form of our defense mechanisms we use to protect ourselves will require one who has stayed under the knife of God while HE, and He ALONE, becomes the one who is allowed to be the Anesthesiologist, His love and grace to be the anesthetic and His joy to carry us through it.
After someone wakes up from a big surgery, they are laying down, tucked lightly under covers while hooked up to an I.V. fluids and monitors to detect brain activity, heart rate, and body temperature. As the anesthetics wear off, alertness increases and one slowly starts to wake up. In most cases, while the patient is still in the hospital and they have woke up, they are not feeling too much pain. The more alert they become the more questions fill their mind, “did they get it all?”, “why am I so cold?” Or even, “How long will it take for me to get out of here? I’m hungry.”
Keeping in context of our series of relationships when I speak of “waking up after surgery”, I am referring to when we realize the Lord has removed our justifications to protect ourselves against relationships that seemingly have the ability to hurt us. It is uncomfortable and we hold on to the notion that “it is going to be uncomfortable only a little a while but it will be better for you in the long run.”
After the anesthetics wear off, we are now in the “pain management” phase of recovery. We have the ability to be snappy, short with our temper and allow our attitude to the surface. The deep tug-of-war that occurs of “What did I get myself into? I shouldn’t have done this” on one side and on the other side it’s “WHEN I make it to the other side of this I know that I will be a completely different yet better person.” It’s right through here that we re-count the cost of the work the Lord consulted with us about.
I believe one level of the pain we feel is actually the eyes of our hearts enlightened, that we may now know what is the hope to which he has called us, what are the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints (Eph 1:18). This pain can be equivalent to being in a dark room and someone coming in and turning on the lights -- the sting that engulfs our eyes is momentary and causes us to close our eyes due to our reflexes. Then we muster up enough courage to open our eyes again. Slowly but surely we allow our eyes to be adjusted to the light.
After our eyes have adjusted once we've woken up from surgery, another pain we experience is how our defense mechanisms have grieved the Holy Spirit and hurt others. This is what lead us to true repentance and becoming an advocate for the saving power of the blood of Jesus. When the Lord shows us how our defense mechanisms have caused a blockage in the flow for someone to receive their healing in another area of the relationship, it will cause us to be certain that we are not the reason for a stroke in the Body of Christ.
This awakening can be a bit troublesome yet the joy is trusting in the words that Jesus told the disciples in John 14:26 But the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby), the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name [in My place, to represent Me and act on My behalf], He will teach you all things. And He will help you remember everything that I have told you (AMP). What blesses me most about this whole process is we do not have to recover from surgery by ourselves. We have a Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor, Counselor, Strengthener, and someone who is standing by ON THE READY to teach us how to walk in true love again. It’s not impossible we just have to say that we are ready to be healed and follow through with the process.
Before you know it your light is shining so bright that you’re standing with arms wide open to love with a supernatural love that can help others break down their walls. From experience, I can tell you that It pays to go through it!
Now unto Him, that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy, to the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen. (Jude 24-25).
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