Starting Place: Side B
At the top of the year, I wrote A Note to The Lactose Intolerant Church in hopes to help us remember that we all have a place to start in ministry. There should never be any place in ministry that we “feel” like we have ever achieved or “reached” to excuse the path of grace that has led us to the heart of gratitude.
With cassette tapes, you would have tracks recorded on one side then you had to take that same tape out and turn it over to enjoy your music! Those born in the 2000s and on barely know what I am referring to.
Everyone has a starting place. A place where they get into position and make a decision to simply go for it. There is a focus that will cost you some friends, comfortable jobs and places. Side A of this matter is simply making sure our mentality is set. Side B is to make sure our hearts are prepared, open, and following the Holy Spirit. Why? Because we are leaving all that we know and stepping into the unknown. I don’t care how big and bad you are; when you remove yourself from the comfort zone of your friends, your “regular” life’s routine, and the fact that you’re able to plan your day to an uncanny capital “T” and all of a sudden it halts... You find yourself feeling a bit uneasy. You get sensitive and extremely unsure of what you once knew. Your confidence is shaken a little bit because your support system is out of reach and relationships are a bit cloudy.
It’s almost like walking out into a hallway you didn’t really know was on fire and there’s a fireball that knocks you back as the flames reach for more energy to burn. That fire can either become your passion to keep moving or it can be internalized anger for unexplained and uncommunicated fears to keep you in the burning house or situation you’re in.
It wasn’t until recently with everything that was going on around me that I’ve had to learn the difference between the peace others had for me and the peace meant for me -- which are two different things. The peace that others have for me is going to be based on the approval and acceptance of them. Everything that would be considered a success is predicated on their man-made parameters and tethered excitement and support. On the contrary, the peace that is meant for me cannot be distracted by any waves of emotional hits to my heart. Building in a time of war and fighting in a time of peace has caused the sands of time to slip through the pinhole of an hourglass of hope. Now it’s time to heal and abide in The Shadow of the Almighty.
Majority of our peace comes when we calm down and accept the levels of truth that have been surrounding us. Then there’s a level of acceptance that will intensify the flame. I encourage you to lean on your safety net and go to those you trust (your Peter, James, and John). The Side B to this starting place starts at the breaking of the bones that either healed improperly due to not setting right; or neglecting the fact you had broken bones and still working through it causing even more damage than necessary.
This starting place is scary, it’s uncomfortable and even unsettling. It’s the beginning of the beautiful process that has a lot of late nights and early mornings, a rollercoaster of emotions that you may not even realize you were on and forcing yourself out of your cloak of introvert excuses to stay in the house. From experience, I can tell you that the journey of self-discovery is indescribable and the strength of your confidence is tightly intertwined with humility and joy.
It’s time to press place and listen to the melodies of the unfolding of your story and your heart.